The Captain's Log

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-Tari Calmcacil

Posting this here, because unfortunately some of the people in question know my tumblr. Hopefully I still have some friends that read DW/LJ and can help me.

Okay, so basically for a long time I've identified as an Aromantic Asexual. Which, generally, no big deal, I'm cool with it, happy, whatever.

But it fucking pisses me off when I make it clear to new guy friends because I've totally been accused of being a friendzoning bitch (And yes, I only do this with guys, because girls seem to be a lot better with this concept, for some reason. Maybe it's because girls constantly receive unwanted attention) that

a) I have no romantic interest in them
b) I have no sexual interest in them
c) If they can't handle being just friends for eternity, to leave now and I won't be mad at them

And then a year later it's "I think I have a crush on you" and they're always trying to cuddle or hug me or kiss me.

YEAH? SO? WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT?

Like, I feel like I can no longer trust THEM at all. I told them I have no interest in anything but friendship. I don't want their love. I don't want to be hugged or kissed or cuddled. It is not something I need to get used to. It is not because my parent's didn't hug me enough as a child. They hugged me plenty, I can assure you. I AM NOT LIKE THEM.

BUT NOW THEY BETRAY MY TRUST BY LAYING ALL THEIR FEELINGS AT MY FEET, AND I'M PISSED. BECAUSE I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT WHO I AM. FOR HAVING TO PUT SOMEONE DOWN WHOM I TOLD I AM AN AROMANTIC ASEXUAL. BUT DO THEY FEEL GUILTY ABOUT MAKING ME UNCOMFORTABLE? MY GUESS IS NO BECAUSE THEY HAVE "NO REGRETS."

God, what am I supposed to do with this? Someone, please advice.

Title: That Beautiful Smile
Fandom: Avengers (Earth-199999)
Author: taricalmcacil
Genre: Fluff
Rating: FRT
Words: 987
Characters/Pairings: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
Summary: Normally Steve hates Tony's black tie events, but Auto Prom might be worth attending.

At AO3

By now, all my XMFC friends have seen the epic!wankery that has gone down on 1st Class Kink. As a result, many members have left the comm for other kink memes. While I do not blame them for doing so, I also oppose the brashness with which they have done so. While oakenshields13 states she will not delete the comm, regardless of whether the current round is the last, the fact remains that she holds sole control over the come and can do whatever she wants, up to and including deletion.

As a result, I have begun backing up all fills, starting with Round 1. When I finish saving fills, I intend to start saving works-in-progress. Unfortunately, this is a very large task. I estimate there are no less than 800 Fills to be saved, and I haven't even looked at the WIP posts yet.

So I'm looking anyone who has free time and is willing to do so to help archive. If you would like to join in, leave a comment here, and I'll give you a specific post and page range, as well as how I've been saving all items.

I will make this a public post, so if you are unable to help but have friends that would like to, please refer them here.

Thanks!

This ficlet was written for Crimeland Case 7, Challenge 32: Favorite Scene. Tag to CM 3x03, the elevator scene. Interestingly, most of this fic comes from first hand experience, very similar to that seen in the episode.

Title: The Elevator
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Author: taricalmcacil
Genre: Character Study?
Rating: FRC
Words: 299
Characters: Derek Morgan
Summary: Derek Morgan used to like elevators.

( Not Today! )

So this is dreamwidth. Interesting. I'm still adjusting to the settings and all, but for the most part, not bad. I think my time on LJ helps with that, at least. Personally, I think I prefer LJ based on overall layout. I feel the homepage there makes things much easier to access. But, I'm still learning, so who knows?

Ii think I shall now go community hunting. And then maybe teach myself some the html coding. Perhaps my friends from LJ could answer questions?

1) How do user tags and cuts differ from ljs?
2) is the imaging code still [img src="..."/]

Title: To Science
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Author: taricalmcacil
Genre: Friendship
Rating: FRC
Words: 476

( To Science )

I give you the results of 7 months of writing and rewriting.

Title: Recrudescence (Chapter 4)
Author: taricalmcacil
Rating: FRT-V
Words: 2,967
Pairings: None
Summary: Those on the station deal with the emotional and physical fallout of Julian's enhancements.

Author's Note: This chapter is unbetaed, though most of it has been edited 3-4 times. Get well soon, jonnycarnahan, so that you can beta the next chapter!

( Energize )

This is it, one of the plot bunnies I've been writing this summer. This is the first chapter of I'm not sure how many, and the sequel to my fic Comprehension, available here. This group of stories may have one, possibly two more additions. Enjoy!

Title: Realization
Author: taricalmcacil
Rating: FRC-FRT
Genre: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Characters: Bashir, Kira (freindship only)
Words: 2,423
Summary: After escaping 371, Julian is quick to discover that being physically free doesn't mean one is also mentally free. Nerys comes to the rescue.

( Chapter 1 )

I started this about a good month ago as a get well fic for jonnycarnahan back when she hurt her back. And now, it's finally complete! Enjoy dear!

Title: Doctor's Holiday
Author: taricalmcacil
Rating: FRC (One Curse Word)
Genre: Comfort
Words: 4,949
Summary: A plot by Colonel Kira gets Julian off the station for a much needed vacation to see the O'Briens. Takes place approximately 1 1/2 years after WYLB.
Authors Note: I have read any post series novels, all I know is that Julian and Ezri eventually broke up., and as such, that is the only post series plot device used here.

( Energize )